Oooookay… it looks like I have some explaining to do!
This is how I’ve basically been feeling the last three months-
So. First of all, February was H-E-Double Hockey Sticks. I had to complete 6 10 week courses in 5 weeks. It was terrible. Every night I was working on a big assignment. Bleh. WHYYY did I want to become double-endorsed again? I don’t know.
February was also Hell because of edTPA. EdTPA is the bane of my existence and the reason I curled into a ball every night. It’s the licencing portfolio required for teaching. It is 50+ pages of pure torture and 5 days of filming condensed into 10 minutes that basically allows the fine state of Florida (I’m in Oregon) to determine whether you can become a teacher.
In other words, yeah. Hell.
March looked brighter, so I started working on my beloved chapter of Wild Eyes. Here I was, innocently ploughing away on my chapter… writing dutifully every day… finally getting over the intense Hellfire of my February term…
When my laptop totally fried.
I couldn’t save anything! My harddrive was connected to an external network (old work computer, courtesy of my mother) and it was totally wiped in an update.
To save you the horrific details that describe my waking up one morning to find my 16,000+ words erased from the world forever, here is a visual example-
Thank you, Squidward! You speak the words of my soul!
Well, the end of March.
Guys… I GOT HIRED.
Before I even finished my Masters- I landed my DREAM JOB just 15 minutes away. Language Arts teacher. 7th grade to 12th grade. ARGH. GAH. I’m still not over it. I am so psyched. I AM HIRED. I AM A REAL TEACHER. I START IN SEPTEMBER.
For now, I’m still student teaching. So, I still feel like this most of the time-
Studying and teaching. YAY!?
It really is a relaxing break, compared to the Winter Term from Hell. But it’s been hard. I have tried to get right back into chapter 29 of Wild Eyes, but I still feel sad about losing my first chapter. It was a LOT of work I was proud of, and to do it all over again gets my blood boiling. I’ve tried to challenge myself to write another chapter- a better chapter!- and so far, I have written about 10,283 words of chapter 29. Aiming to finally finish it around the 25,000 mark by middle of May. School should slow down by then. Should. I hope. I beg. I plead. I graduate in June, so at the very least I’m hoping by then.
This does get me down, because I had a plan. I HAD A PLAN! I was supposed to be finished by now! I don’t feel like a real writer at all and it depresses me. I feel like I let you guys down. That’s why it’s taken so long to write an update after my laptop crashed. I’m truly sorry. I wanted to finish Wild Eyes by now. Ugh. I have so many plans for what’s next and yet I can’t, because it’s not finished!
Gah. I’m sorry. Truly hope this next chapter makes up for it.